As I get ready for bed tonight, thinking about what tomorrow holds I'm surprised by what I feel. Last year at this time I had no idea what was in store for me. I was excited, nervous, apprehensive, happy. This year, while some of those feelings are still there, I also feel some level of dread, knowing what is to come, exhaustion before it even starts, and a sense of wanting it to be over before it begins.
We met the first years tonight, and they are full of this sense of wonder and elation to learn... and I don't feel that. The spark is somewhat gone and I really just want to be a PT. I'm sure that once school gets in the swing of things I'll get back on track, but the anticipation is just killing me. I want more summer... and I don't want 10 weeks of 'really fun' school.
On the upside, I officially met my roommate and we get along just perfect! I think its going to be really fun and we've been having a blast decorating the house and making everything fun. We are fully having craft parties and movie nights, and planning when we are having guests over and stuff. I totally love it!
This quarter doesn't look too tough... we have Neuromuscular Systems, and Musculoskeletal systems where they teach us how to treat specific problems and then Exercise Phys, which is how your body responds to exercise and then a bunch of seminars, so I don't think its going to be too crazy.
alright, that's it I think... hopefully i'll do an ok job of keeping up on blogging this quarter. no promises though!
Ana
25 September 2007
13 September 2007
losing a friend...
This morning a man who has been very dear to my heart since I was in high school passed away. He was our associate pastor at church, and one of four men that my dad had a mens group with once a week for a couple of years. Eventually, he became much more like a father than a pastor, a confidant in, not only spiritual matters, but life lessons of patience, waiting, and trusting.
Through the years, after Scott moved to California to pursue a doctorate, we stayed in touch. Our emails weren't frequent, but they always came at just the right time. In moments of crisis, or exhaustion, severe stress and elation. Scott always had the perfect things to say, the best ways to keep me on track when life was both a high or a low (especially a low!) I still have every email that Scott ever wrote me, always with inspiring words of hope, truth and ways to persevere even when I didn't want to. I will always cherish his memories: his rendition of rainbow connection by kermit the frog at talent shows, his Richard Dahlstrom impersonation, the afternoon we spent together in california when i went down for spring break in undergrad, and many more...
While we, down here, ache with a knowledge that it will be some time before we see him again, all of heaven rejoices because one of God's beloved has return home. And I have to hold on to his words of wisdom that always were so poignant. I think one lesson he taught me, that might be useful now, in a time such as this, is that sometimes you don't feel like thanking God for what's going on, well thank Him anyways, sometimes you don't feel like singing, well sing anyways, sometimes you don't feel like praying, pray anyways, for it is in discipline that we come into the habit of going to him in every situation, and come to worship him in both the good and the bad.
Thank you, Scott, for being such a steady force in my life, for being the voice of God in a world that often times didn't resonate His will into my being, thank you that the lessons you've taught me don't leave this world when you're earthly body passes away, thank you for making me be one person of many who were touched by your incredible life.
Grace and Peace,
Ana
Through the years, after Scott moved to California to pursue a doctorate, we stayed in touch. Our emails weren't frequent, but they always came at just the right time. In moments of crisis, or exhaustion, severe stress and elation. Scott always had the perfect things to say, the best ways to keep me on track when life was both a high or a low (especially a low!) I still have every email that Scott ever wrote me, always with inspiring words of hope, truth and ways to persevere even when I didn't want to. I will always cherish his memories: his rendition of rainbow connection by kermit the frog at talent shows, his Richard Dahlstrom impersonation, the afternoon we spent together in california when i went down for spring break in undergrad, and many more...
While we, down here, ache with a knowledge that it will be some time before we see him again, all of heaven rejoices because one of God's beloved has return home. And I have to hold on to his words of wisdom that always were so poignant. I think one lesson he taught me, that might be useful now, in a time such as this, is that sometimes you don't feel like thanking God for what's going on, well thank Him anyways, sometimes you don't feel like singing, well sing anyways, sometimes you don't feel like praying, pray anyways, for it is in discipline that we come into the habit of going to him in every situation, and come to worship him in both the good and the bad.
Thank you, Scott, for being such a steady force in my life, for being the voice of God in a world that often times didn't resonate His will into my being, thank you that the lessons you've taught me don't leave this world when you're earthly body passes away, thank you for making me be one person of many who were touched by your incredible life.
Grace and Peace,
Ana
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